Mixxotrophic is not Anorexic

I made promises that i won’t hide this from anyone at all. This is the reality that we all have to accept, and this is His will that we have now. Things in our life happen unexpectedly, and sometimes we don’t get what we always want. We all make mistakes but in His eyes we are still all perfect. Brothers and mostly my Sisters, what i need now is support and not criticism, guidance and not judgment, respect and not shame.

dear baby,

i’m sorry if mom is not at all at the right age for this. i am sorry if i am as of now irresponsible, childish, and living my way still as a teen. i hope you understand baby , mom is still young and being mature is not instantly there when you come out. i may have immaturities but i promise you, i’ll grow old with you.

i promise to be a good mother to you, and to be there when you grow up. i cannot promise you a better life than what your grannies had given me, but i promise you that i’ll be the best mom to you even if i’m just a kid.

i am sorry if i had you at seemingly, the wrong time. but i swear i have prayed for you since i was young, and asked the Lord to give you to me at the time he chooses.

you know i wanted you for so long, but i never expected it to be too soon. Maybe God sees you as a motivation for me to change, to live my life better, to be a good daughter, and i as a good mother to you.

I am probably wrong, this is the RIGHT time to have you as long as God wants it to be. I certainly never rejected you since day one, you know i was so proud to have you even if people considered it a controversy.

I love you so much even before i knew i was pregnant. i felt you inside, i felt you here for me. Thank you baby for making me feel fulfilled. I never regret having you, and never will i. :)

i promise you that i’ll be as understanding as i could, and i would be a better parent as i’ve learned from grandpa and grandma.

your dad and i cannot promise to be the perfect parents all the time, we are young, we are prone to mistakes, but we promise to give you the perfect love.

since you’re here already, mom and dad will do everything for you. we would patch our family together and grow together. I believe that we are blessed to have you here, and God knows i always have a prayer for you, to keep you safe inside, and even when you’re born already.

i’d promise i’d do everything for you, i love you so much. mommy and daddy will always be here for you… God loves you..

6 months more. i’m getting impatient… i want to touch you. :’( you’re the best gift God has given me. i love you so much.

-mommy

today will be a happy day.

yuki asked me to go to the movies with him…

i asked what movie…

“the kim chiu gerald anderson movie”

……

ay nako….

you housewife!

you know what guys, hearing about the news should not be a reason for you to get me talked about.

i know some of you read it, some of you heard it..

but please, stop breaking the news for me, because i’m telling you that this is not something that i am ashamed of or something, but let me be the one to tell the world and not you…

i don’t want to be in a world of fame within these few months, because i’m currently at the state of changing my life and knowing what i want it to be.

yes, dreaming of becoming famous is something, but not at this point where people find me as a mode of entertainment, or — a mode of backstabbing.

i know i have a lot of haters, but c’mon, this is none of your business na. and as of now , i don’t have time for depression because i know and you know that it is bad for me. so let’s just fight after a few months, :) when i’m physically strong and cognitively-enabled to rant with your childish minds , i’ll do it. but not now, ok?

so people, don’t get too excited for me. there’s still an existence of the word PRIVACY. so please lang, leave me alone for now.

i promise everyone, i wont be selfish about IT, but let me first have space to talk to my close friends about it, those who deserve to know it, and especially my parents.

i wont keep this too long, i’ll be updating people for the rest of the few months in case ok na. i will be posting pictures, and i’m clearly stating i am not ashamed of it. I am CLEARLY not.

just give me time, promise..